I have a serious problem, it involves obsession and infatuation?

I have become infatuated and obsessed with wwe wrestler Kaval. When I first saw him on NXT about 5 months ago I fall in love with everything about him. His face, his voice, his body, his personality and the way he carries himself. I even went online to learn as much as I could about him, I learned him and I are both Virgos, both born in the year of sheep except he was born in 1979 and I was born in 1991. I read everything he ever wrote about himself and I felt I was not just in love with him physically but in love him mentally and spiritually too. I was so desperate to get his attention that I constantly sent tweets and MySpace messages to him all the time. I can honestly say he was on my mind 24/7 and still is. Well anyway, he never once responded to anything I sent him so I decided to up the ante. That's when I decided to look up this address and send letters professing my love and sharing with him all my deepest thoughts, feelings, and secrets. It's at that time that he blocked me on twitter and MySpace. I know I should have stopped, but I was so enamored with him I just couldn't let him go I wanted to tell him face to face how I felt, so on a couple of occasions I want to his place of residence in person. The first time I actually say him but I was too scared to say anything. That same night I twitted to him that I was at his home that day. The second time I went I got arrested because apparently he placed an injunction on me. That happened about two week ago. Next week I have court for the crime of stalking him. The problem is now I have weird mixed feelings about him. It's like at times I feel vengeful and angry towards him for having me arrested and everything that followed, but there are other times that I still feel like I love him despite everything I've been through. It's like all my feelings both the pleasant ones and the terrible ones keep going back and forth with each other in some sort of chaotic hurricane of raw emotion. I'm scared I may do something I may regret for the rest of my life, so what do I do?